Help a lady out?

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Gloomy Rainy Sundays

Yesterday being my mother's birthday I made her cupcakes. Her, my dad, and I also went and saw a movie. (John Carter of Mars if you must ask. It was actually not bad.) However, this isn't about celebrating my mother's birthday. It's about promises.

 I love my mother dearly. We don't see eye to eye on practically anything it seems but she wants soo soo bad for me to share her ideas. But I just can't. Religion, politics, day to day things that aren't important at all...

Last week she made me promise to go to church with her for her birthday. It's not just that! She's made me promise all sorts of things that I cannot keep. Like moving far away or calling everyday when I'm gone. I go long distances for work and I'm often very very busy. I try to call when I can but it's very difficult when everyone is demanding your focus. Often times I just don't have anything to say except, "Hi mom, I love you! this day was not terribly exciting. How are you?"  She always expects more...and I don't have anything to say past that. I'm sure to eventually move far because my work demands travel. It's something I enjoy and I can certainly do better than a small town in the midwest.

Religion is a troublesome one.  I'm agnostic and she's rather conservative. Recently the arguments are increasing. I have decent reasons for my ideas that she can't seem to understand. We're fortunately over the speed bump of homosexuality.

Ah, this blog isn't well organized.


Here's a video to make up for it:   Video fun times.

Gotta get back into the swing of things

So to be honest I've not been blogging mainly due to outright laziness cause by depression and anxiety.
I started on new medications and while the seizures have stopped, I ended up trading one problem for another. Depression, anxiety, disorientation, severe loneliness.
But all of that will end soon. I discovered there's a surgery I can do that will end this. I will no longer have to take horrible medications and will be free entirely. Hopefully then I will be able to feel like a person again.
Well more so, anyhow.

To make up for my lack of posts, here's me getting pissed off at an empty box of girl scout cookies:

Hopefully more updates soon.